I am fat

Yes, you read that right, I am fat.  I can and do admit it.  What is harder to admit are the reasons why I am fat.  When I was a teenager, I was pudgy but because I was in army cadets (got 2444 RCACC) so I was active and pudgy didn’t get out of hand.  When  I was 18 I quit army cadets and that I think is where all of my problems started.

I guess I thought I could eat all I wanted and it would not get out of hand, but it did.  I am now more than twice the size I was when I was 18 and hate looking in the mirror.  I shove the hatred down in my soul with salty food.  I am a salty food person.  I don’t mind a chocolate bar every now and then, or ice cream but give me a large bag of potato chips and we will be friends forever.  Cereal is another one of my addictions.  If I bring even one box of cereal in the house with a carton of milk, I can guarantee the box of cereal will be gone by bed time.

I can admit that I am addicted to simple carbohydrates. When I was first diagnosed as a type 1 insulin dependent diabetic at 23, I was told I could have carbs and again, my addiction took over.  I ate pasta, bread, cereal, chips, popcorn, whatever I wanted but didn’t think or care about what they were doing to my body.  Now I know and care about what they have done to my body.

I am fat.  I am morbidly obese.  But, there is one significant difference between and most of the other morbidly obese, I own my addictions, I own the fact that I have done this to myself and I am working on changing it.  I have been working on it since September 2013 and within the next 4 months or so, I will be having weight loss surgery.  WLS is NOT the cure, it is simply a tool in the process of changing my  lifestyle to a much healthier and happier one.

From one carb addict to another, do something about it before you begin to wreck your body and soul.